Sometimes life gets difficult or you suddenly find yourself losing your mother and having a baby all in the same week. As this happened to me, I’ve felt lost, directionless, depressed and also still with the responsibility of leading my family and being a mother. I’ve sought much advice and am nowhere near out of the postpartum/ grief fog, but I’m enjoying this book to help me get centered again. Maria Shriver has a remarkable ability to speak as a friend and mentor, and I’m truly relishing every page of this book. I now have new daily prayers and meditations and am starting to see some light again. It’s helping me remember who I am and what I stand for. I think we can all use a reminder sometimes and I hope you don’t find yourself picking up this book because of a hard time, but because you’re seeking more joy, faith and love in your life. Enjoy
My mom lost her balance in a golf tournament in late June. Six weeks later Glioblastoma Multiforme took her life. I had no idea brain cancer, or any other kind of cancer could move so quickly. Losing my mom has been the most difficult time of my life.
I’ve learned quickly that nobody has the right words, except a few friends that have weathered a similar storm themselves. My mom was always here with me in the background and now she’s not. It’s like a cord has been cut and all of a sudden I’m here on earth without my oxygen tank, my support, my nurturer. As time goes by I know I will feel differently, maybe the pain will change or go away. Maybe I will be able to smile more and not feel this ache in my belly. Life will never be the same but I know at some point I will feel joy again.
Because I have no experience with grief I have turned to friends for advice. So far a few trusted friends have told me to visit refuge in grief. I plan to do their grief writing course and have already found some small comfort in their support community.
I hope one day to be able to offer more to those also facing a similar tragedy but for now this is my recommendation if you also find yourself losing someone you love.
Sending love and peace.
Mom life forever leaves me wanting to start my day centered but with less time on my hands. I love to meditate and have a moment to drink my coffee in peace but that doesn’t always happen with two early birds in the form of small boys. I love this version of Saint Teresa’s prayer when I am super limited on time in the morning. It always leaves me feeling great and ready to face the day ahead.
May today there be peace within
May you trust God that a you are exactly where you are meant to be
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith
May you use those gifts that you have received and pass on the love that has been given to you
May you be content knowing that you are a child of God
Let this presence settle into your bones and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise, and love
It is there for each and every one of us.
— Saint Teresa of Avila
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